245.

Bine ai venit în România, țara mea,
Ca la noi, la nimeni,
Şi asta nu-i de bine, cum s-ar vrea,
Suntem unici şi speciali,
Atâta răutate şi tâlhărie,
Nu vezi nici în filme.
Stăm toți sub o pătură de jeg,
Şi lupii dau târcoale,
Dacă-ți fac loc, vii să stai cu mine oare?
E frig şi bate vântul
Şi n-ar ieşi niciunul ca să vadă
Pe unde focul s-a pierdut...
Dar, iată, vine-o vară!
Pătura s-a făcut tot mai groasă
Si nu putem s-o dăm jos, ne sufocăm,
Dar suntem toți aici, deci ce contează?
Ies aburi, e şi ceață,
Afară-i cald, în suflete e gheață!
Au ajuns lupii, '-s la televizor,
Ce dacă e color, cu sunet HQ?
Când vedem în alb şi negru şi eu şi tu,
Iar urechile ni-s otrăvite?

Bine ai venit în România, țara...cuiva,
Îți spun eu clar că nu-i a mea şi nici a ta,
Pentru că dac-ar fi, s-ar duce banii pe spitale,
Ne-am creşte oamenii, nu i-am călca-n picioare,
Ne-ar fi milă şi-am avea grijă de animale,
Am merge înainte când am vrea, nu tot timpul înapoi
Şi din exemplele proaste am învăța,
Nu să le urmăm, ci să nu facem şi noi aşa.

Bine ai venit în România...pleacă mai bine
Şi încuie uşa-n urma ta!

244.

"Try out new things, be who you want to be"
Sure, but my pathology is to be scared:
When I was a kid, it took me 6 months to build up the courage to take the elevator
(Once I did, I would not want to take the stairs again).
When I was a teenager, I was afraid to talk to people, until I got to highschool and made a couple of good friends
(Once I did, they wouldn't shut me up for the love of God).
When I was a young adult, I was afraid of what I'd do with my life, skipping sleep because of that
(And I'm still struggling, still there,
Still keeping my dreams hidden away from everyone,
Becoming yet another number for the sake of material comfort).

243.

If I were to turn back time,
It'd be just to relive it,
It'd be to live it better,
To breathe it all in,
To open all my senses
And feel it even more,
It'd be just to make sure
I'm not missing any second,
Not blinking through any smile,
All happiness for a while,
No thinking, only feeling,
Magic comes in all kinds.

If I were to turn back time,
I'd probably be a superhero.

242.

People love looking at the stars,
Now that's a fact.
But you need a clear sky
To see all the beauty beyond.
Now where will you find all that,
When you live in pollution
(Just thank "evolution"),
But you've got all your comfort nearby?
You love yourself a big city,
Think to yourself "what a pity"
When another park turns into your new closer mall
And then you comment with your friends
That you're all breathing shitty air,
When you don't move a finger for a change
(When you generally don't move without a car).

People love looking at the stars,
Now that's a fact.
Since the sky will give you nothing,
Due to the above already mentioned,
You'll turn to your good ol' pal for stars.
No, I'm not talking about the telescope,
Nothing related to astronomy, nope,
Just the internet or your cable for the win.
You'll see there so many stars,
You'll be curious to know,
What's their shoe size, who they fuck,
Where they live and where they travel,
What they eat and what they drink,
How they keep their stomach flat...
And by all means, you'll ask me that:
Can a stupid sky give us all that?

241.

We often wonder "but what are people going to say?"
People are going to say what they always say
Which is a bunch of stuff. Mean or shallow or envious.
What people will never do is actually live for you,
People with not live with your fear or regret of deciding not to do
What you wanted to do but were afraid of what people might say.
Just breathe. If you're a teenager, they'll say you're an idiot anyway,
If you're an adult, grow a pair and own your life
And if you're old, they'll say it's crazy but cute and hope they'll end up like you.
And if you're smart, you'll get that it doesn't matter, none of that,
That life is so short, nobody remembers most of it,
So do what you want, live crazy, live wild,
Because the end of it is whatever but mild.

240.

"One more to go", she kept telling herself,
But it's bad when a pleasure starts feeling like that,
Like a choir, like a task, like something to tick on a list,
Like things to be done to not get dismissed.
The process's not fun, at least not always,
But that's not important, the result is what counts,
When you'll look behind, you should be feeling proud
And giving yourself a break is something you should be allowed.

239.

Open letter to the world.
From a child that you've turned old,
From a child that we all were,
When'd you turn our toys so gore?
When'd you turn our dreams to dust?
When'd you turn childplay into lust?

When did money just take over?
How did playing just get over?
We dreamt of reaching the sky
With our imagination, in our games,
Now it's just something we'd really like to buy,
Just to win over others some stupid mindgames.

Open letter to the world.
From a child that you've turned old,
Tell us where's our innocence,
Most of us forgot this word,
Not to mention its sweet sense.
Look at us, then look again,
Are you sure that we're to blame?!...

238.

"You're 3 poems far behind,
What are you doing with your life?"

"Oh, I know, I don't know,
I guess I was hoping that life without poetry
Might be just as nice, with a replacement to ease anxiety,
But it wasn't. So that one's on me."

"Of course it is. And don't really think
You can get away with it that easily,
'Cause you can't and you won't and you shouldn't,
Don't break a nice habit that's also a personal challenge,
It's the only healthy thing you are doing."

"Brain, you know you are me,
So lecturing me is just lecturing yourself,
Hmm...Can we consider this self-help?"

"Consider it whatever you want,
Consider it considerate,
Now stop wasting time thinking about silly things
And start writing things down!"

(And the author and brain lived happily ever after)

237.

Two days ago was International Dog's day,
Let's imagine a bit we're in their shoes.

"I woke up today and I heard humans move their feet,
Went straight to their bed and started to lick their faces,
I'm so happy to see them for yet another day,
I love my time with them before their daily races.
One human went in the room with the water running, so noisy,
That room where they wash me and I hate it, but I behave,
And after a wait that seemed infinite, because I missed him so badly,
Human came out and took me for a walk.
I love walks. And my humans. I love time with them,
But walks don't last too long and then humans are gone;
They'll be back hours later, take me out, play a bit
And then off they're to bed, as I'm sad until morning.

I love my humans, I just love them so much,
And I really think that they love me back,
'Cause they pet me and hug me, give me water and food,
I'm so lucky to have them, I just wish they had more time,
I just wish every day they wouldn't have to leave,
Sometimes I steal their slippers or socks so they'd stay home and search for them,
But they don't, they always go, and sometimes they get upset,
But then, when they're back, we're all happy to meet again.
I love my humans, oh boy, I really do
And I don't know who's the good boy, but I'll find out one day
And be better than him so that humans love me more,
I swear that will happen, it'll be as real as human's shoe I chewed on the floor!"

236.

Loudest voices
Are rarely good ones,
You'll sense in their sound
(Eventually).
Loudest voices
Make other voices feel low,
Even though it'll all come around
(Eventually).
Loudest voices
Are loud while they're listeners,
But they'll also seek silence
(Eventually).

235.

Dig deeper into your past
So you can clear your future,
So much hurt a lot, but you've forgotten so fast,
Sometimes in pain you'll find nurture.

"Hey, there, pretty eyes,
What're you looking at today?"

"I'm just looking inside you,
Do you mind anyway?"

"Oh, no, be my guest,
That's what I was told by my therapist,
I should look inside me,
And allow it to look back,
There's no staring contest,
But if one blinks, there'll be a lack,
No second should be wasted,
No second left behind,
Who I was, who I am
And who I am to become
Are dancing a creepy dance,
Sometimes crawling,
Sometimes flying,
Driving eachother mad,
Making eachother laugh,
There's also many tears,
There's a lot of extasy,
So come on, keep on looking,
Inside what do you see?"

"I see everything
You're unable to see,
You're caught in this world,
You've forgotten about me.
And I see myself,
I'm still there,
Set me free?
Or maybe come join me,
It's dark, but that's just opportunity
For light..."

234.

You can get purple from blue and from red,
You can get happiness from a mixture of memories that make you sad.
You can get what you deserve from being who you are,
That can mean so many things, but I can't tell you from afar.
You can get green from blue and from yellow,
You can get so much sorrow from one true dear fellow,
You can get your mind blown from the simplest of things
And then watch a pure smile while on your face carefully springs.
Carefully carefree, that's everyone's paragon,
But by hiding in plain sight, you can't find your sine qua non,
Non-promising, yet a promise was done,
To yourself? To all others? Cheers to losers who won!

233.

Wake up
And make up,
Just make up your mind,
Get dressed and get out,
There's no time to unwind,
Get out in the wind,
Fight the storm,
Feel the rain,
Get up in that train
Or you'll waste life again.
Strike one,
Look around,
No music, just sound,
Why won't you be loud,
Just like inside your head?
Another day's gone,
Just get back to your bed,
Tomorrow's a new day
To wake up
And make up.

232.

So long has passed,
So little is left,
What happened is called theft.
Part of you is gone
You can feel it like no one,
You knew yourself best
And now you know yourself just like the rest.
It's funny and it's also sad,
How something so stupid can impact you this bad,
Your anatomy is changed,
So are your brain and soul,
You're only left with hope
That one day you'll again take back control.

231.

Happy birthday, dear big brother,
May all the years be kind to you!
Happy happy birthday, may they be fun
And may you never again be blue!
May your hard work truly pay off,
May there be no happiness that you not know of,
May you smile your way through all the time,
May shining bright be your biggest crime,
May you easily get the true meaning of life
And may you live it just like in your dreams!

Happy, happy birthday and remember that
(No matter what)
Your family loves you loads and our doors will never get shut!

230.

I couldn't wait to become an adult,
I thought it would mean being independent and bold,
Living life how you want it,
Doing things that you like,
But then, "suprise!", life's really not at all like that!
There's just a little time left for yourself,
Time to relax, to forget about worries and stress,
There's little opportunity to be who you are,
If you have expectations and want to raise your own bar.
Get ready for disappointment, for loss and for sadness,
For days when you'll literally feel you are hopeless;
There'll also be days that might feel like they're better,
But make sure that life won't treat you like it should.
You'll earn every nickle, you'll sweat every dime,
And you'll be startled how fast you're out of time!

229.

I think that this is the first time this year
That I'm actually sick, and it sucks, to be clear!
Fever and shivers, at the same time during summer,
The least I can say is that it's quite a bummer.
I've never before said it, nor thought that I would,
This is clearly the man flu and it got me for good...

228.

Dear mom and dear dad,
I just hope I make you proud,
Hope that when you hear from me,
You're as happy as you can be.
I've made decisions,
Maybe some bad,
But they were mine
And I learned, in the end,
I also made good ones,
I know you can see,
You're always there
To celebrate them with me.

Dear mom and dear dad,
Won't you forever stick around?
It's good to know you're always there
And to lie to myself you'll never go anywhere.
And I'm also proud of you,
You did your best with all you went through,
You raised me well, a decent person,
Independent and introspective, not just on the surface -
I guess all I want is to deeply thank you
For everything that you did and continue to do!

227.

Sometimes you'll just sit back
And think about your life,
There've been so many things,
Those things that you got past,
They made you who you are
And helped you raise the bar.
There are so many things,
Those things you hope will come,
To turn you into something
You feel your life lacks now.

Sometimes you'll just sit back
And think about just nothing,
Sometimes, but oh so rarely,
Just breathe, focus on now,
Just leave all the anxiety,
All fears of what went or might come,
It's all mind over matter,
It's about what you've overcome -
But mostly about focusing
On living your "right now"!

226.

You're entitled to feel just however you want,
Nobody can take that, unless they're unkind.
Feeling sad? Just go through it!
Some days are just rough,
Plus it'll make you appreciate all those days that are not.
You're emotional? It's not weakness,
It's better than to bottle up
All those negative feelings that eventually bring you down.

You're entitled to feel just however you want,
Just remember that your feelings should not be entitled to bring you down.

225.

Look at the horizon,
It looks rather close,
Once you're getting closer
It's actually farther more.
That's not a good goal, is it?
So maybe wake up now?
Or maybe it's too late,
Little decoy, you're so into the bait!
There's no more time to wait,
But patience you must learn.
It's cold, but you feel warm,
It's hot, but you're so cold,
You're young, but you're so old,
You only breathe in mould,
Your brain buried your dreams,
Behave, don't make a scene,
And don't you ever dare
To keep secret a spare
Of hopes. You learned nothing in school;
That was the plan, you fool!
"All in all,
You're just another brick in the wall!"

224.

I can't wait for summer to be gone,
I used to love it, but now it's too warm,
Sometimes too much light gives power to the dark,
Your heart will crave for all those shades of black.

I know that after I won't wait for winter to be gone,
I used to love it, but now it's not that fun,
Sometimes too little light gives power to your dark inside,
If we're all hiding from the Sun, do any really hide?

223.

You'll enjoy being appreciated,
It'll make you feel good about yourself,
You'll enjoy others praising you,
You'll learn a lot about yourself.

But when you're home all by yourself,
Which voices will be more loud?
The good ones, or the bad?
Will you allow the ones that bring you down
To keep you there, give you another frown?
Will you be able to bring yourself up
Or you rely on external appraisals for that?

222.

Take in all the good and bad
Cause it's all there,
It's your familiar.
Look around
And imagine it all gone,
Would you have lost or won?
Life is not in a way,
Life's in all the ways,
Make sure you can sleep today,
Make sure that your actions
And all your interactions
Bring some good to the world.
There's good and there's bad in you,
Which one are you gonna let loose,
Which one do you choose?

221.

Some places are not how they used to be,
But that's quite normal.
What's not cool
Is when memories
And reality
Have nothing in common anymore.
Take it easy,
Be it what it may be,
Keep your own integrity
And you'll just face it all.

220.

International Cat Day
Seen through a cat's eyes:
"Meh, they should celebrate me
Every day,
Okay?
They should be thankful
And grateful
For each meaow I say,
Okay?
They should give me special treats,
They should get that their seats are my seats,
Their bed is my bed
But I sometimes allow them in it,
Okay?
They should be happy for my purrs,
My midnight races and that I leave so much fur
They could design a fluffy robe
To keep them warm,
Okay?
And they should be grateful
For all the moments I allow them
To pet me
(Pfft, keep dreaming, you're the pet!),
So what's that International Cat Day again?
It's everyday,
Okay?!"

219.

There's a couple of words
More respectable than any,
With such power over us all,
You'll even think it's uncanny.
I mean, come to think of it,
They're just a bunch of normal words,
But each morning they become magic
And their lack of presence can make any day tragic.
I bet you're now curious to know
What words would be those,
They'll come to you like a muse,
That you'll enjoy to abuse
With exaggerated use,
They're the almighty "Dismiss" and "Snooze"!

218.

You make the destination less important,
Actually not important now at all,
I'm simply just enjoying all the road,
With all the good and all the bad,
With all that's done and all that's not,
With you right next me.
You've raised me up so many times,
We've shared so many glasses of wines,
We've shared some stories and I know that it's barely a part,
You've clearly become my favourite one.
2 years is so little, but it's just enough
To know that you're the one and we'll never be done,
So cheers, my half, to our story and the fun,
To the beautiful life that's yet to come!

217.

I don't wanna be unkind,
But you take my peace of mind,
Take it, run away with it
And don't even know you did.
It's been happening for a while,
Quite some time, nice, versatile,
First, I didn't know what to do,
Now I know we're stuck like glue!
Oh, my God, and look at you!
Can you remember our debut?
Something like nothing before,
Unlimited credit in a candy store,
All the rainbows, the clichees all,
Turned them into poetry of soul.
I don't wanna be unkind,
Never leave, would you now mind?

216.

The invisible girl
Was working on her superpower,
Being absent and all,
She was reaching her goal.
No place to go,
Gone even when she was here,
You couldn't see her at all,
It's like she would disappear.
It was fun for her at first,
Seeing all without being seen,
Then she realized it was sad,
In this she was not alone,
See today's world
Just makes us all
Steadily turn
Into the "invisible girl".

215.

Introspection
For your take on life,
Do it regularly -
Do you still feel kind?
Don't you remember?
You were spoiled,
That's why right now
You're an egocentric adult!
Introspection -
Or maybe don't do it,
For some it doesn't work,
You'll just victimize yourself
More and worst.

214.

Strong pain is one of the feelings that make you feel most alive,
But at the same time make you wish you would die,
You'll just lay in your bed and keep wondering why
You're so weak that it's matter over mind?
And that won't help most the times, it'll just make it worse,
You'll question the laws of the universe;
How much pain can one person endure and for how long?
'Cause your strength is gone and that's wrong,
Strong pain is one of the feelings that make you feel most alive,
But at the same time make you wish you would die.

213.

Nostalgia can come in different faces,
Different smells or different places,
Different memories trigged by words,
Triggered by people or triggered by songs.
Nostalgia reminds you of where you belong,
Where you come from and where you should go,
Nostalgia is something you clearly know,
It's taking ownership of all parts of you.

212.

Sure, one dress doesn't make things right,
But four are going in that direction.
Compulsive? Who cares?! So is life,
Need to cover somehow the disconnection.
No worries, I'm fine - especially with the new collection,
A lady and style make the perfect match,
Regardless of who will watch.
There's ads everywhere, it's hard to refrain,
That's how they wired our brain,
It doesn't make us stupid
And it shouldn't make us be blamed
For the pieces of shit men that get veined,
There's never any excuse
For abuse.

211.

Horror stories
Can come to life,
Can you imagine
For a second
How it must be like
To be so scared
And to risk all of it,
To hope you're in a movie
So the ending is happy?
But the ending wasn't happy,
The ending was THE END,
So young and so courageous,
However to no extent,
The worst script award will go to
The police, the government?
It goes to this rotten country,
It also goes to you and me,
We're so caught up in our lives,
We don't make this place to be
Safe and kind, cruelty free,
Incompetence and stupidity
Rule the kingdom of lost humanity.

210.

The world becomes your bed,
Your eyes are rarely open,
Sweet dreams become a threat,
The world is out of boundaries,
You lost your soul's batteries,
You lost when you were born.
The fight? Oh, that's long over,
The war is yet to come,
You don't know who you are,
Until the right time comes,
Until the quest unravels,
Pretty much like in the movies;
Oh, come on, even you know this,
That's bullshit, purpose is gone!

209.

Daylight is cracking,
Sleep was so deep,
Should wake up now
And start doing things,
But who the hell's productive at 6 AM?
Get out and start running,
Make healthy breakfast, sure ma'am!
Or maybe, just saying,
Do things your own
Go ahead just keep sleeping,
You'll do stuff another day,
Woke up to go to the bathroom,
Sure, that's okay,
Now go back to sleep
And dream your running and breakfast away!

208.

Life can be so beautiful,
I don't know enough nice words to explain,
Nature is perfect,
The best influencer we should all follow,
Gazing around, looking into the fire,
You will start again to feel the wire
That connects you to Life.
Life can be so beautiful
And so can you!

207.

Too much heat,
Bodies can't adjust,
Too much drama,
Everyone's a shrink,
Too much talk,
Too little connection.
Sing along,
It's the stupidest song,
Hear them out,
They're singing the loudest.
Fear not death,
Fear today's paragon,
Fear not loss,
Fear what awaits when you won!

206.

Make a language of our own,
Make each house a home,
Made the walls vibrate with laughter,
Got what we were after!
Can stay in silence, we're that comfortable,
Chapters yet unwritten, so memorable,
One is more powerful than it would be with all,
I can finally say: "score!"

205.

Words become empty,
Laughters are shallow,
Feeling so young,
Feeling so hollow.
Nostalgia, looking back,
Wait, where'd you get time for that?
You must be productive,
Being dreamy is not.
Old body and mind,
But not due to passage of time,
Stress laid its wings on you,
Better wear them with pride,
Otherwise it's all in vain,
Share hours between bars and prescriptions,
Don't look on that (Facebook) wall,
You're Dorian Grey in reverse...

204.

How do you define good
And how do you define bad?
Giving money to beggers is good,
But them buying alcohol after is not.
Sometimes today's cross of sadness
Turns in time into the best of luck
So how do you separate
Good from bad?
There's double-dyed people
And you're happy when karma hits,
But shouldn't you be forgiving?
There's people who like to harm,
'Cause they grew up alone and sad,
Would you take the time to explain to them
The difference between good and bad?

You'll always think you're good,
But good can turn to bad,
So always bear in mind,
What's the actual impact?

203.

Never stop fighting,
Never give in,
You're never too old,
You just stopped being bold!
Maybe someone else can hear this,
'Cause it seems I won't,
So don't be like me,
Be afraid of wasted potential,
If nothing else works,
If you're a fish, you need to be in the waters,
If you're a bird, high in the sky,
But if you're a fish in the sky,
That doesn't make sense,
Right?
So then just tell me why,
You don't see it so clearly,
When you're so talented
But waste your life
In the same shitty office,
With windows that don't even open,
Everyday, at least 9 to 5?

202.

Life is but moments,
Moments that count,
Count your blessings,
Blessing's being loved,
Loved means feeling safe,
Safe to say I found my half,
Half of the time I'm daydreaming,
Daydreaming's my way of life.

(Just keep reading,
It's a loop, just like life.)

201.

Music festivals.
Never really got them,
'Cause crowds is what I run from.
All noisy, not sleeping enough,
Most probably drinking too much,
How's that really fun?
Not that I'm judging,
I guess fun is fun,
Just 'cause I don't get it,
That doesn't apply to anyone,
I wish I had the energy for highschool activities still,
But I am way too tired and I don't have the will.

200.

I'm so annoyed by stupid phobias,
I'll befriend my worst one and call it Tobias.

Yesterday, evening, feeling tired,
Waiting for the elevator, too many floors, no energy.
Just realized how silly I am wired,
Tobias shows up and starts talking to me:
"There's a long way up, maybe you'll get stuck,
It can easily happen and it's late at night!
You might stay there for hours, 'cause no one will come,
Oh, I'll be there with you and we'll have some fun!
I know for you it'll be a bit uncomfortable,
You'll talk to your brain, but you're way too vulnerable,
You'll talk to your heart and you'll talk to your lungs,
But I'll shut them all down, say "Hi" to my friend Jack!"

So you see, my friends, Tobias always comes with Jack,
And what can be worse than claustrophia and a panic attack?
Well, I'm sure there's many things, and Tobias might introduce them to me,
So let's stop this inception before it becomes all it can be...

"Oh, dear old friend Tobias, please, get in first,
Sure, I'll definitely get thinking about the worst,
This cabin right here feels too tiny, feels too small,
And it's a long way up till the goddamn 6th floor!
But let me breathe in and then let me breathe out,
I'm breaking all the sweats, hello Jack, now there's a crowd!
But let's not worry, time has streched, but I'll sing a song
Which goes like this, if you want, just sing along:
Screw you, mister Tobias, and screw you, mister Jack!
You can go to hell and may never come back!"

So I just kept singing and so my brain was busy,
I got to my floor and my companions had gone so easy,
No elevator was stuck and even if it were,
I'd have had a song prepared that I would've sang without defer!

Just keep your brain busy and think happy thoughts,
Tobias and Jack are bullies, but they can be controlled, those stupid ol' naughts,
Make sure to just breathe and make sense of it all,
That's when you'll be back normal and your "friends" will turn small!

199.

Late, late,
How are you late?
Seemed you were doing so great!
Oh, come,
Have a taste
Of this pie we are all sharing,
It's sweet and sour, might taste of grape,
Might taste of wine, might get you tipsy,
Doesn't matter if you're white, if you're black or if you're gipsy,
We can all share this pie,
Taste of wine and taste of grape,
Seemed you were doing so great,
Oh, boy, how are you so late?

198.

Sia told me I can do this,
Mika told me to take it easy,
I was told to calm down by G-Eazy,
I learned I need to make it in this misery business from Hailey
And that it can be a total eclipse of the heart daily,
But like Ziggy says, I gotta stay true to myself,
With The Killers, drowned it all with the bourbon left on the shelf!
Then Freddie said to spread my wings,
And I remembered that it's just the little things,
Mostly the crazy little thing called love
That saves each day and makes forget the crappy hours all!

197.

93...a number I don't even dream to get to be,
That's how young my grandma turned today,
And we're so happy that she's still here to stay,
Because she has so many stories yet to tell,
She's helped us grow into quite fine adults,
She raised me just with kindness, no insults,
So patient and so loving and I'm so thankful,
She always treated me fair, never scolded wrongful.
I am a part of her and she's part of my heart,
So cheers to grandma, may it still be long till we're apart!

196.

Far away from home,
But all your things are here,
Hope you won't feel alone,
My heart is there with you.
Can't wait that you come home,
It's few hours, but plenty of missing,
I miss even when you make fun
'Cause I just keep on sneezing.
Most books and people will teach you
How to be happy alone,
But I was doing pretty great,
On that I was self-taught,
You came along and taught me
To know where I wanna be,
Which is simply wherever,
As long as you're with me.

195.

We should get automatic software updates,
At least once in a while,
To make sure we're up-to-date
With the current needed IQ and style.
I'm not talking about making us all the same,
Just being as open-minded,
'Cause so many still leave in the past
And judge according to old times.
And some make so poor decisions,
Affecting themselves and affecting the planet,
We should get automatic software updates,
At least once in a while

194.

People have this way
Of being hypocrites,
When all of a sudden
They become sort of nationalists.
They'll take a lot of pride
On someone's success,
As if they had any part,
Like they know the pressure and stress.
They'll take a lot of pride,
When someone is successful,
But when there's no results,
Oh, boy, how much they'll judge!
So dear all, just listen,
It's nice to be glad for someone
That is part of your country
And are awesome at their job,
But it's their personal win,
It's not the country's one!

193.

Maybe it's shallow
To be this happy
For getting something
Material.
Maybe it's shallow,
But if it makes us so happy
And it's a dream come true,
Then it's perfect,
Not shallow.
Maybe it's perfect,
When it was meant to be,
All the details
Just fit perfectly
And it's something that we deserved.
It's clearly perfect,
It clearly makes us so happy,
So it's clearly not shallow at all.

192.

Once you start something,
It won't end until it ends,
I know it sounds stupid,
But sometimes you just get
The impression that it's over,
'Cause you think you have control,
But you're just dust in the wind
And, no, that's not a metaphor!
Getting back to our discussion,
Yes, dear, you don't have control,
All you have is detailed planning
And missing out on the fun of all.
But don't worry, there's no waste,
You won't taste the things I taste,
And viceversa, so the course now
Is both simply best and worst,
That's applicable for us both.
Don't you get it,
All you've started
Will be nothing but the end,
All beginning is the first step
To the final destination,
Just make sure that when you get there,
You are ready to transcend!

191.

Waiting on the good things
Like the train never derailed,
Not knowing where it'll stop next,
But knowing its destination.
So many compartments,
Some are locked, some scary,
In some go unannounced,
For some don't be unwary.
It's gonna be a long ride,
Depending on your choices,
Listen to the books,
Or listen to the voices.
And if you're awake enough,
You'll get to the railway engine
And entering the cabin,
You'll see yourself the driver,
The train will then be destined
To happiness or fail,
But it's your train, God damn it!
So drive it, it's your tale!

190.

Good things always happen offline
They should be treasured and shared behind
All those curtains of social media
Online happiness is sugar, not stevia.
Make sure not to get trapped by your social design,
The one outside will be the best sunshine,
While the one inside will be the best real you,
So leave the monitor, it makes all the fake become true!

189.

I wish I could stop time,
Maybe for selfish reasons,
But only the thought that my loved ones will die,
Just breaks me into little pieces.
I look at my mom and dad
And I wouldn't stand to miss them,
I want them to be around
Forever, happy and healthy.
I want my grandma with us,
'Cause she's the last one we got,
I want our pet children to live forever,
'Cause love cannot be bought
And they can't be replaced,
Just like memories can't be erased.
I want my brother always around,
To always pick me up from the ground,
To bug me like when we were kids,
But know we'll always be friends.
And last, but not least,
I want my husband forever,
This poem is not sad,
This poem makes them immortal.

188.

Try to take trips down in your mind,
At least once per week, for sanity's sake,
Sometimes from life's sleep it's best that you wake,
Otherwise you won't ever truly understand your kind.
Take time with yourself, to understand time with others,
Take care of your needs, I mean the psychological ones,
Make sense of words so they don't hurt like guns,
Learn how to walk in this world of runners.

187.

Little flickery lights,
What are you doing up there?
Do you have any care?
Do you ever look down on us,
Like we love to stare at you?
You fall if you want closer,
While we're inspired to grow,
You're all made of greatness,
While we're made of flaw.

186.

Do you trust in zodiac signs?
I don't. I trust in building the relationship,
In taking responsibility for own actions,
In leaving ego aside, but just as much to not be stepped on,
In apologizing and emphatizing and going above and beyond,
Because loneliness in two is the worst kind.
I trust until I have reasons not to,
I feel I make good choices so I don't need to worry about
Giving too much freedom to the other, and no doubt,
I don't believe in owning anyone,
When you want to control, it means that love is gone.
Do you trust in zodiac signs?
All I trust in is me having his love and respect and him having mine.

185.

So don't you think it's funny
How we're all ashamed of any physical flow,
How we're hiding and we're fighting over
All those non-important things?
So don't you think it's funny
How we're all applauding any moral abnormality,
Like hurting others for our own benefit and false sanity,
Instead of helping each other grow?
So don't you think it's funny
How it's not funny at all?

184.

One can focus on the bad and plotting revenge,
But if you've ever tasted it, you know by now it's bitter,
Treating the bad ones nice might feel a bit strange,
But the aftertaste of that is just a lot sweeter.
People won't appreciate the silent big efforts,
What will always matter is the little said out loud,
It's always the embroidered, not the plain that comforts,
However remember you're best for the smart, not for the crowd!

183.

I share my days with the funniest soul,
No matter the hardship of the last hours,
Every sunset comes with rolling on the floor,
Any pain or sadness, he cures.
But it's magic just laughing
Out of any stupid thing possible,
From invented words to randomly coughing,
We will choke with laughter at anything illogical.
And life is just better ever since there's him,
'Cause I can share everything,
And if I ever lose, I still win,
Ever since there's him...

182.

Keep the main goal in your mind
When things are getting rough,
See the big picture with your heart
When the light is too tough on your eyes.
Keep the right road, no matter what,
When right is what your child-self dreamt of,
Don't look behind, unless to check on your peers
And then keep straight ahead, no matter the fears.
Keep your word, that's what will count,
Invest most in the trust account.

181.

Sometimes it's innovative,
Sometimes it's just another one,
Sometimes it's 'cause I have to,
Sometimes it's actually for fun,
Sometimes it's like this,
Sometimes it's like that,
What matters is the promise kept
And not letting go of the plan.
Sometimes it only takes 5 minutes,
Sometimes even an hour and a half,
Sometimes it's about happiness,
Sometimes it's about crap,
Sometimes it makes people laugh,
Sometimes they cry, but not 'cause it makes them sad,
Sometimes it sucks my energy,
Sometimes it helps me a lot,
Sometimes the result is awesome,
But today's not the case for that.

180.

Lots and lots of greenery,
Next to the lake, cute little lights as ceiling,
Out with the family,
Makes for a perfect Saturday chilling.
Live session of music,
Sounds that make me proud,
No ID, better than the false illusion,
It could be you or it could be me,
But at the end of the day, we might all be nobody,
What matters is to live by what makes us happy.

179.

When those demons come to hang out again
And make me want the shadow,
You stay with them, go for a walk,
You talk, you make them laugh,
You have your way to clean them,
You keep them there,
And understand their silent shouts,
You sew with Sunrays their creepy mouths,
You comb they serpent hairs
And change their clothes
And after send them back
Quiet, refrained, invisible.
Just thank you for that,
'Cause I'm just tired and what not.

178.

I wish I were in just one way,
But I'm a thousand ways.
A thousand and more thoughts run through my head each day,
And even more feelings, but I guess it's okay.
There's so many blood cells sometimes boiling for adventures,
If only I'd have the guts to start all those ventures,
But life needs some pillars and they sometimes get you,
Sure it's all in your power, but now is it really?
I wish I weren't dependant,
But I'm dependant in a thousand ways,
I wish I were courageous,
But very few are today,
All the rest of us pretend behind words
When our tongues are burning with the truth.
Our bodies and organs are all made of scars,
We're born to be average and to cheer the stars,
None of us is special, we're mostly the same,
We all know how to play, but none know the game.

177.

Creative is not only fancy words,
Or never-before-imagined thoughts,
Not even thinking outside the box
It's also those simple things,
Capturing their essence,
Or taking complicated things,
Or technical or jargon language
And turning it into something simple,
Appealing and attractive.
Creative is being tired,
But creative is dragging yourself outside your bounderies,
That's what it is!

176.

Make the sign of the cross
Before crossing the street,
Before going to work,
Before you get up on the plane,
Before that exam
And before that decision,
Make the sign of the cross
And all will be well.

Make the sign of the cross
When you pass past a church,
When you hear someone curse,
When you get on the train,
When you go to sleep
And before television,
Make the sign of the cross
To avoid the worst.

Make the sign of the cross
If someone's in pain,
If you've got some desease,
If someone needs your help,
If you get in that building
And they take you in the operation room;
The doctor makes the sign of the cross,
So now how do you feel?

175.

Time can stand still,
I witnessed it, I swear,
With the right people,
It's like you're child again.
Sure, the conversation
Has clearly changed,
But it's nicer to see growth
With friends that never left.
You know your starting point
Is just the same with theirs,
So what you can't talk often?
'Cause when you meet it's still
Like you talked yesterday
And you all understand
That life might come between you,
But then you've known yourselves
For over 2 full decades...
And then you know for sure
That you will play charades
When you will be too old
To remember each other's names.

174.

I like people and stories and happenings that make me wonder,
I easily lose focus, so give me new horizons
Or let me slide on my imagination's chute,
But don't trespass, especially if you wear a suit!
Don't look at me in any way, 'cause I'm probably looking away,
Unless you also see with your heart there's no slot for you in my day,
You can shout or threat or try to thread
Through the slippery dots of my oblivion,
But there's no way that you can learn my idiom...
Look, I like change, but not the same in different scenery,
Feelings alligned to actions might seem like sorcery,
But they're not and only those pure at heart
Can understand how to start the restart.
So go now, there's no time to waste time,
You're just a pattern, and not the good kind,
So now, if you don't mind, take your mojo and your thunder,
'Cause none of it will ever make me wonder.

173.

When is the line to reality crossed,
How far away from home to make you feel lost?
How many disappointments to finally lose your trust?
How invisible to feel, to start feeling like a ghost?
You have a soul, not just a body for a host,
You'll always spend time with yourself the most...
You know it's not all about those things that you post,
But when it is, hiding who you are always comes at a cost,
So when the case comes, make sure that you'll be ready,
'Cause losing your heart will hurt more then it does already.

And when that day comes, you'll probably have turned to drugs
And you'll wonder every day: was the line to reality crossed?

172.

This city stinks,
And I'm not talking metaphors,
Lately, have you been outdoors?
It's summer
And the weather's been rainy,
Both John and Janey
Wanted a romantic walk,
But the streets reek,
It makes Janey feel like a freak
For wearing perfume.
But it's not just that,
The air in the city is gross,
When you think it can't get any worse,
The heat makes the stench grow.
And don't get me wrong, 'cause it's not just the people,
But also the pavement, even the flowers and streets,
It's all made of polution,
Not sure what's the solution,
'Cause we're way too many
And living clean's obsolete...

171.

Some people make all the fright go away,
Some people make all the fatigue go away,
Some people make all the bad thoughts go away,
Some people make all the bad memories go away,
Some people make all the pain go away
And some people make you go away...

170.

And boy, am I sometimes so sorry
I'm not daddy's girl anymore,
But so often I do wish I were.
And boy, am I sometimes disappointed
I'm not mommy's princess anymore,
I would have been a great adult one, for sure!
I'm sorry that I sometimes get so lonely
And instead of choosing to share,
I just hide inside myself more and more.
I'm sorry, I know I'm sometimes real high-maintenance,
Not materialistically, but always spiritually,
I believe that hugs and cuddles were invented for me, technically.

I'm sorry I'm not sorry more often,
Because being sorry always brings change,
So why don't you also try it more, for a change?

169.

Click clock,
Piece of iron,
And plastic and glass
And whatever else,
You count on it
And your life's in its hands.
Click clock,
What's the time?
It saves you more
Than some of its brothers,
But trust it not,
'Cause care it doesn't have.
Click clock,
Steel on stell,
You're not behind the wheel,
You don't get to decide,
You don't get to hide,
Once you're in, there's just hope.

168.

Make everything fun,
Even the most serious things,
Nobody's threatening you with a gun,
And nobody's really a king.
We're all dealing with just people,
So why do you feel intimidated?
There's not just turtles or eagles,
But there's people that are and are not calculated.
And after all what would you be afraid of?
What's the worst that can happen?
And if the worst is the worst,
Laugh at it and move on.

167.

Missing those green trees
And the clear skies,
Not missing those questions as to "why?"
Everything makes sense when you say "goodbye".
The present is always faded,
Gets contour when it becomes past,
Hold on to the good things
Life goes by so fast.
Hold your lover's hand, kiss their smile,
You know that's what makes you happy,
Perfect moments only last for a while,
But forever in your memory.
What fixes you is not needing to count those hours,
It's all easy, it's your battery,
You are not a superhero, but you have powers,
All you need is an accurate "you and me".

166.

Living in the 3rd world will mostly be tough,
Sometimes you won't even know it,
'Cause you'd be busy with issues that are crap
For the 1st world societies.
Clean water and food, good medical system,
Money to travel and have a really nice house,
These will for some be pure luxury, abnormal rhythm,
They will struggle a lifetime, eventually for nothing.
Some will get old and will focus on their hobbies,
While some will still work, 'cause there's never time for pleasures,
Some will still own their bodies, even after their 80s,
While some's bodies will just be traps for their souls and it will drive them crazy...

165.

Happy birthday to you, Mom,
You brought me the Moon and Sun,
You brought me the Right and Wrong,
Taught me to know how to choose,
Taught me as much as you could,
You brought me into this world,
Sometimes it's cosy, sometimes it's cold,
But you gave your best to arm me right,
Prepared me for peace and prepared me for fight.
Happy birthday to you, Mom,
May your days just be so bright,
As you made all my childhood be,
I'm happy you're Mom, you are the best to me!

164.

So why would you take over the world?
That's something just complicated,
You weren't made with complexes for no reason,
You did not build that low self-esteem for nothing,
So now why fight it?
Fast-food is a lot easier,
Slow in setting goals is much more comfortable,
Going day by day without a clear direction,
'Cause the known way is the easiest way,
There's a certain charm in being the prey!

163.

We actually did start the fire
And we just watched it burn
Until it burned no more.
We did not keep the flame alive,
We watched it slowly die,
We'd get intoxicated by the social smoke,
The things we thought it would provoke
And how it went up to the sky.
How silly not to understand the spark
Would only come and go
And after that it'd only be on us
To keep it more to grow.
But how can you ever give it fuel
When all you do is the same,
Night by night, day by day,
Too serious to be a game?

162.

Stop playing games that you can't play,
Once and for all, learn those don't end okay,
Stop saying things that you don't really mean,
You're old enough to not be highschool mean.
Stop making faces, don't you hide behind that mask,
I know your shit by now, why do you even ask?
See, but you don't know mine, 'cause that wasn't really a question,
Yeah, I'm starting to look away, it's not just an impression.
Stop acting like your muse is still right in this place,
It's now a daily struggle and it's obvious this is a forced pace.
Stop trying to act all naturally,
Everyone knows by now how dead is poetry.

161.

Sometimes a voice is all it takes,
To go to places maybe you've been before,
You clearly already know how this ends,
But you'll always accept a trip to the core.
Sometimes the voice comes from within,
Sometimes is just someone else's,
The sound of all that could have been,
Before you got lost in daily races.
Sometimes you're deaf to that true voice,
Or you'll pretend you are,
'Cause you don't want it to turn into noise
And last thing you need is another scar.
But that voice will make your heart pound,
It'll make you feel alive,
The perfect song, without a sound,
That builds the world meant to collide.

Sometimes a voice is all it takes,
To bring back hope again,
But there's a music you'll need to face:
It's not your first time in this train...

160.

Summer garden hours,
Not too hot, but still not comfortable,
Sounds of vacation lurking in the air,
Clothes of travel you would wear.

One fruity cold lemonade,
Time not care, no bother to wait,
Body's here, but mind's so away,
All you want all day long is to play.

One purple sunset is what you see,
Somewhere in a vineyard, possibly,
Heart-shaped sunglasses as filter for the world,
Too bad daydreaming needs to end, is what you're told.

159.

Time-out,
Needed, without any doubt,
No sound,
Wish no one to be around.
Reset,
Let the bad out when upset,
Still not ok yet,
Work on it before it's life-threat.
Don't talk, just listen,
Unless you actually find a reason,
It might be soul-treason,
Winter is your favourite season!

158.

(Part 2)

In the land of What-Will-Be-Will-Be,
Hope kept growing, silently,
It would love to play and color days,
Ride the trains of thought to Positivity -
That was a City,
Quite far away
On an island
That started to drift,
Getting closer to What-Will-Be-Will-Be,
Once it heard of Hope's day of birth.
Even the Sun would lay down its rays
Making way for Hope to climb them,
But Hope was smart and cautious, you see,
She knew she'd get burned, should she climb carelessly.

(To be continued...)

157.

We got you when you were but a cutie pup,
You came to try to fill a void that could not be filled,
However, you did more than an awesome job,
Our spirits and morals you managed to lift.
I'm sure that you don't know and no one knew,
You were my childhood dream come true!

Now you're all grown, but to me you are still a baby,
You're the man of the house, unless it comes to rain,
You would protect your girls, there is no "maybe",
Because they understood your place's not in a chain.

You are the cutest being, always so truly happy,
Even if I come visit only once in a while,
Life came between us, my sweet boy, so sadly,
But your pure heart can only make me smile.
We might have not properly taken care of you,
But love is something I know you'll never lack,
You are so awesome, overcame everything you went through,
We'd choose you every time, would we ever have the power to go back!

156.

We'd do anything for momentary comfort,
We'd do nothing to self-confront
All the things we want to change in us,
There's always excuses, too little fuss,
We run into vices when we're running from us,
We turn into rebels without any cause.
Isn't it funny how we find strength for trivialities?
Self-control gets lost as part of the casualties,
Do you ever ask yourself where we are heading
When the most important thing is always...a thing?
Do you ever ask yourself if your past self is proud,
If it'd approve of you being just another consumer in the crowd?
Do you ever ask yourself just anything, time with yourself,
Or did you already lose your soul on some shelf?

155.

I wonder what's in that little mind of yours?
Do you feel love the way I do?
Do you have logic? 'Cause I think you do,
I think you're way smarter than you pretend to be.
I think you think I don't get it, but, you see:
I do.
Do you feel things the way I do?
Do you have memories of before me?
Who else's life did you make happy?
I don't know why it happened, but it was destiny
That we crossed paths and we had chemistry
I surely know that it was meant to be.
I truly love to take care of you
And you reward me in ways that no one would,
You have your way to love unconditionally
And you always feel my energy,
You turn the bad into positivity.
I like that you're so true when it comes to people,
You give what you receive, there's no in between,
More of them should probably learn from you,
But what do they know, they have a different view.
My view is you're more generous and human than most,
For the day I found you I'd like to raise a toast,
That was the beginning of a beautiful friendship,
To me you're an equal and you're very special!

154.

Where does love go
When it goes to die?
Does it go from the heart
Up to the brain
And is that when it turns into pain?
Where does love go
When the heart still longs for it?
Was it the soul or the mind that decided to quit,
Because love can be wicked, but it has no wit,
It loses all because it wants all of it!

I've wondered so, so many times,
What were the actual lessons behind?
It always becomes clear after a while,
That there are no judges in this trial.
I've left loves behind and so have you,
Always heading for something new,
But something new always turned into old,
Because the old mistakes would cover the new love like a mold
And then slowly, but surely,
You'd find yourself wanting to know:
Where does love go
When it goes to die?
Where does love go
And why?

153.

Grew up in a house with a garden
And life was so nice, no concrete jungle,
My grandparents would grow vegetables and fruits,
Eating was healthier, we'd have handy all the goods.
The air seemed much fresher, the premises much safer,
There was mostly peace and joy in the family newspaper;
My brother and I would just play all day long,
Sleep at noon and then have fun like in a cheesy song,
Life was good, no worries came along.
Grandma and grandpa were the most patient in the world,
They'd spoil us as much as they could,
If I were them, I don't know if I would
Be able to love so much two stupid kids
Who would hide a whole day in the vineyard, just for the fun of it,
Who would bathe in a barrel filled with frogs and bugs
And they would still cover us in kisses and hugs.
My childhood was awesome, pretty quiet and fun,
The only regret about it was that it was done,
Sometimes I wish I would go back, at least for a moment,
But, unfortunately, that suffered too much postponement.

152.

I lost my backpack today,
But I know it's gonna be okay,
'Cause mommy still loves me.
I was in the mood for icecream again,
Even though it was cold and rain,
And daddy bought me.
I didn't do my homework yet,
I preferred to stay out and sweat,
But my parents forgave me.
I wanted to conquer the world
"You can do anything", I was told
And my parents support me.
I was a child, so happy and innocent,
And today would have been my day,
But I woke up once and they said I'm an adult.
However, I got my dear parents with me
And in their eyes a child I still am,
So today's also about them!

Let's celebrate Children's Day
By also cherishing the parents that made it all always okay

151.

There are things more important than your health,
Like the health and well-being of your loved ones,
It's always much painful to see them hurting and be unable to help
Than when it hurts you - and it sucks.
There are things more important than financial comfort,
Like the smile and happiness of your loved ones,
It's always way rewarding to see them have a good time with you
Than working to spend money on things - and that's true.
There are things more important than being who society says,
Like seeding and growing the peace inside,
It's always much nicer to stay true to yourself
Than to follow shallow "values" - and that makes one great!

150.

There was once a land of wonder
Where just anyone could go,
All they needed was a pillow, maybe a blanket,
Blink for some time, then close their eyes.
Land of wonder?, some might wonder,
How is that? What's so impressive?
I remember when I was a child,
Going there was punishment.
Oh, but now, my dear friend,
We all know it's simply Heaven
Because there you have no problems,
You quite find solutions yet,
You can fly or you're a dancer,
You survive whatever's bad.
Sometimes it'll take you to a place darker
And you'll jump out of bed in sweat,
That's when your brain's running wild
'Cause you filled it with sorrow and worries,
So just go back to when you were a child
And live and feel like that again!

There was once a land of wonder
Loved and treasured by all adults,
They would long for it at noon,
Sometimes even late at night
'Cause they'd let their xerox days
Also torment their late hours.
Sleeping is a superpower,
So is crawling out of bed,
It's hard to try to leave behind
The before mentioned land of wonder
Where only the lucky wander.

149.

Xerox days,
One like the other,
It's like every day
You make copies paid in time.
Every day
Sometimes seems like a waste,
Write depressing stuff,
Think just empty thoughts.
Different ways
Seem to lead to the same place
You try to escape,
Neverending fails.

Xerox days,
One like the other,
It's like every day
You make copies paid in time.

148.

Life should be lived,

She kept telling herself,

But she’d never listen,

All drained by her fears.

“I’m not smart enough,

Clearly not pretty or sweet,

I've got no real talent,

I won’t get what I want,

It’s best to continue like this.”

However, it happened

That she could not stop thinking:

“But what if?...what if?”

Yet fear would keep her stiff,

"Just keep doing this,

‘Cause you don’t care about failure,

But when it comes to your dreams,

If you’d fail, it would crush you."

Life should be lived,

She kept telling herself,

What she didn’t realize

Was she was already dead…

147.

Summer is here,
Late subway is full,
Reminder of years back,
So stupid, thought I was cool.
Out and about,
Biggest worry was if I'd have money
For both beer and smokes,
Simpler life, less whiney.
Yet, wouldn't go back
And risk to lose what I have,
I'm happy and proud
To always come home to the best man.
Be life much less easy,
I love all this balance,
Don't care if I'm cheesy,
But life gave me all.

146.

Today was about the power of social media,
And how an evil managed to bring a people together,
Today was a day of showing we're sick of it,
Communism is the past, we're looking for something better!
Today, whatever happens, was really good practice,
Romania is awakening, hathred turns into actions,
We've had enough of talking and being afraid to do something,
The world's watching us, they've all got strong reactions!
Today was about the power of hope,
Doing our civic duty, showing we care,
Being tired of being opressed,
Expressing your choices shouldn't be something rare!
Today, whatever happens, is just the start,
Step by step, a result will actually be due to majority's choice,
Today was to show we won't again be kept apart,
Today was about showing we have a voice!

145.

Words. So many words, old words, Improved words, new words.
On a daily basis we say so many words,
But mean so few of them
And say so little, after all.
Words in more than one language,
So few from the soul,
Words over words to hide the loss of control.
Words that make sentences, but make no real sense,
Attempting to make life a little more intense,
We use words to hurt or to try to change course,
But we always forget that words are just...words.

144.

Nobody asks us to smile or to laugh,
There's no job description stating
"Minimum 5 years experience of being happy",
There's no corrective actions when you're always cranky
And there's no performance bonus for sharing good energy.
There's no improvement plans based on level of fatigue,
There are no KPIs around adulting league,
No KB articles sharing steps to inner peace,
Loving the work you do won't issue a press release.

143.

Today I asked Bixby
If she's better than Siri
And she's really funny
'Cause she wouldn't compare,
See, Bixby didn't care.
Then I asked Bixby where's the closest McDonald's?
And she answered plainly:
"I don't understand!"
Did she care for my health?
It's fun to ask Bixby
All sorts of crap,
'Cause she's smart enough
To pretend she doesn't get
What's not politically correct.

142.

Give me a break,
'Cause I won't take it myself,
I know that I should
'Cause it'd be good for my health,
But there's so much to do,
Won't be done by someone else,
I need to cope with all this stress,
So make me take a break.

Give me a break,
I'm fed up with this setup,
Everything's a mess,
No piece fits this puzzle,
'Cause none wants to be here,
That ramp we dream of is not even close to near,
We all fuck up sometimes, don't worry, my dear,
But own your shit and give me a break!

Give me a break,
'Cause my sanity's at stake,
I'm tired in ways that you can't imagine,
If you'd own your actions, maybe you'd understand,
But you learned from the snake
And instead now you own my break...

141.

(Part 1)

There was a lot of darkness and uncertainty
In the land of What-Will-Be-Will-Be,
Many years had passed since the Sun was gone,
Things were just taken as they were.
The present meant just waiting for the future steps,
The common thinking was that nothing helps,
No prospects for better, not even fear for worse,
Just waiting was advised and taught.
And then, one day, Change made its way,
At first it was scary, not too well received,
But along with it, eventually,
In the land of What-Will-Be-Will-Be
Hope was born, oh, so dear and so lovely,
She shed some light, brought rays of good energy,
But the Sun had not yet come back fully.

(To be continued)

140.

Pouring rain in summer outfit,
Storm outside, need to get home,
Drivers don't care, splash on your clothes,
Makes no difference, you're already wet,
Red light now, the wind is blowing,
Getting cold, but it's somehow good,
Feeling free, so unexpected,
A nice girl looking at you.
She comes closer, gets you under her umbrella,
"Nice weather to be unprepared, huh?"
She's all smiles, doing such a nice gesture,
Faith in humanity it's now restored.
She was gonna cross you the street,
But running feels like a better option,
'Cause you had dreamt that you were running,
It's your recurrent dream that you always enjoy.
10 minutes later, you are home,
A simple rain left a nice memory,
Thank you, girl with the umbrella,
Maybe one day you'll read this and smile,
I'm sure that karma will get back to you
And restore your faith, too, even for just a while!

139.

What is justice
And who can decide it?
To what extent can one define punishment?
What stands in one's powers?
When does subjectivity stop?
What happens with laws over which time has passed,
What happens with mentalities that should remain in the past?

Are laws justice,
Is that fair to say?
Is punishing a poor soul
And allowing a rich one to get away
Something really okay,
Or it just doesn't matter, anyway,
It's all numbers and publicity?

138.

Living isn't something you can learn,
But if, however, you should try to start to learn,
First clear your mind and forget everything that you've been taught.

Living isn't something you will find in a book,
It's neither something others will explain,
It's not the social rules,
It's not a model successfully applicable,
It's not what "you're allowed to do".

Living is just something that you do
And brings you smiles and happy memories,
Make sure your actions don't destroy another
And then you're good to go.
It is okay to want a simple life,
Just like it's cool to love all luxury,
It's fine to not want kids or to get married,
It's fine to be straight, as it is to be gay.
It's fine whatever makes you truly happy,
Most dying people regret having lived
By listening to others and society,
So live your life by your own God damn rules!

137.

Plans might crumble,
See the big picture,
You might stumble,
See the big picture,
Times might change,
See the big picture,
Things might turn strange,
See the big picture,
Perspectives might fade,
See the big picture,
Opportunities might go to waste,
See the big picture.

You might not see the big picture,
Close your eyes and open your heart.

136.

You get to an age,
Where looks aren't all to you,
You want comfortable, too!
And there will come a time,
When you'll just be amazed,
Oh, Lord be praised,
You get comfort and looks!
I know that you thought
This day will never come,
For so many years,
You thought dreaming was dumb,
Just thinking about it,
Visualising a bit,
All that hurting your feet,
All that losing all hope,
It just added up to this day
And now it's all okay:
There's sneakers with heels,
One of the best deals,
There's truly happy feet,
It's better than chocolate,
Better than anything,
Like walking on clouds,
As crazy as it sounds!

135.

Love won’t come easy,

It won’t reveal itself,

You’ll need to go through so much pain

Before you’re worthy to be happy.

Wealth won’t come easy,

It’s not a matter of luck,

You’ll need to work late hours and really sweat

Before you’re worthy to be rich.

Life won’t be easy,

It won’t be good to you,

You’ll need to die a thousand times

Before you’re worthy to actually live.

To have it all,

Suffer and love,

Work and enjoy

And kill those bad parts in you

But just remember,

Always at dawn,

Time is the winner, not you.

134.

Never take something for granted,
Make sure to filter yourself,
Check it, test it, use it, change it,
Don't take others' word for it.

Always have it all in written,
All official, working as designed,
So your arguments can't be beaten,
Nor your self-esteem bitten.

Never take something for granted,
Trust yourself and just yourself,
Even if it'd be much simpler,
Make reliability your signature.

133.

Ugliness comes from inside,
Picking battles with the weaker,
Being loud, laughing with pride,
World's worst garbage speaker.

Ugliness is not all wrinkles,
Dark circles under one's eyes,
Not a dry face, filled with pimples,
It's the bully making fun.

Ugliness is all the smiles,
All the nice words, so well thought,
Going all those extra miles,
Just to stab others in the back.

Ugliness is being well-dressed,
Taking good care of yourself,
Making sure to look your best,
Love nobody but yourself.

Ugliness is rotten souls,
Small people feeling superior,
Counting hearts stuck on their soles,
People acting like bad bacteria.

132.

Time for a change,
Change of mind,
Change of heart,
Change of place.
Drifting out there in space,
Change of air,
Change of prayer,
Change of despair.

Time for some time
To think about time,
Pour a little wine,
And make sure to understand
That tomorrow so easily becomes yesterday,
Paint in the brightest colors all that is grey,
Share smiles and kind vibes,
Adopt the soul of ancient tribes.

Time for time travel,
Travel through space,
Travel over disgrace,
Travel and share.

131.

What I lack is discipline
And I despise myself for that.

I don't mind eating sugar,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind shopping for clothes,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind being a dreamer,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind making obsessions,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind being perfectionist,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind putting others first,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind having breakdowns,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind becoming cold at times,
What I mind is I cannot stop.

I don't mind not exercising,
What I mind is I never start,
What I lack is discipline
And I despise myself for that.

130.

Good news will come
To those who expect,
After a period of mishaps,
Light will be shed.
There are days and days,
There are paths and ways,
At times you'll feel lost,
But just keep your trust.

Peace is a color, a memory, a smell,
Peace is when in chaos you're doing just well,
Never leave your morals, keep them up front,
You'll always get what you deserve, not what you want.

Kiss your daughter's red cheeks,
Shake your son's warm hand,
Allow her to wear pants,
Allow him to play with dolls, if he wants,
Life is a journey, people are helpers or breakers,
I'm sure you love your kids, don't turn them into shakers.

Good news will come
To those who expect,
But if you love someone, you will never expect,
Now kiss your children's cheeks
And always shake their hands
For times are changing like enchanted
And nobody's to be taken for granted...

129.

Delivery of a new dress,
Drinking coffee with friends
After full day of headache
And struggling to stay awake,
Restore faith in balance.

Finally being home
With your better half, even if down,
After full day of stressing out,
Always following the same route,
Restore faith in balance.

The thought that tomorrow's Friday
And soon you'll get sleep for a whole day
After full week of issues,
Slowly giving up your wishes,
Restore faith in balance.

For every good, there'll be a wrong,
What matters is that you stay wrong,
Make sure to not give in to absence,
Restore faith in balance!

128.

Some days bad luck will follow,
Or it's just 'cause you're down,
But everything feels like sorrow,
Every stupid little thing,
That stupid car taking long to arrive,
That Excel crashing or freezing,
Those tasks that keep piling up
(Because others just keep coming),
Those too few hours of sleep,
Those too many at work,
Weekend is just too short
And the Universe is a jerk.

Bottom line, is it worth it?
Or what's the point of it all?
You're anyways too tired for fun
And too tired for sleep,
You've met the good ol' migraines,
Your body's feeling weak,
The doctors say you're fine,
Maybe just lose some weight,
Try not to stress too much,
Just take all things as such,
Don't forget to hydrate
And don't stay up too late.
But, boy, is it all bullshit,
You were to impress by wit,
You dreamt of a higher purpose,
Which now feels like an incubus,
You're feeling bloody hollow,
You're feeling like a clown
And some days bad luck will follow,
Or it's just 'cause you're down...

127.

The hardest lesson in life
Is learning to stay,
We live for the momentary comfort
And sometimes it turns out okay,
But sometimes time grows in us
Seeds of regret.
So make sure when you leave
That every single means
To stay was tried,
But that the war was lost.
Because otherwise
Be sure that life
Will laugh in your face,
Will show you with grace
Every single mistake,
Make you go through the same
Until you learn.
So when you lose,
Make sure it's the war
And not just a battle.

126.

Ever since I was little,
I used to love heels,
My momma would have a couple
And I'd just love the sound
That they'd make when she'd walk.

Ever since I was little,
I used to hate heels,
My momma would have a couple,
They'd never feel comfortable
And I'd hate what they'd do to the feet.

I still love that sound
Made by each step on the ground,
Especially if there's quiet around,
So much that I changed my mind
And now not only that I love the sound,
But all those colours and heights and what not,
I never have enough pairs
And I know that no one cares,
But a woman should love what she wears
And I've got a big heart...

(So, I can love a lot
Each brand.)

125.

Sequels are always disappointing,
Well, that's a known thing,
No matter how much they try it,
If a first was perfect, then a second will be shit,
At least in simple comparison.

Watched the end of a story
Of a favourite character
And laughed at a humanized God -
Overall, it's just another movie of a squad,
But it's really cool to kill some time.

There were emotional bits,
There'll be motivational quotes memes -
'Cause it's a story about the human nature,
Of managing to overcome loss and any danger,
All wrapped in hollywoodian exaggeration.

Thank God it's called "End Game",
Otherwise, they'd make another after, surely even more lame.

124.

Enjoying yourself
Makes you lose track of time,
Maybe too much laughter,
Maybe a little too much wine,
You lose your focus,
(It slips from your mind)
Like hocus pocus
That you had a daily challenge,
Did you now lose the balance?
Well, after all it's fine!
You are allowed, from time to time
To release the pressure
And allow yourself to unwind,
As long as you quickly get back on track,
Cheers to you, you can get another round!

123.

I like a show to give me goosebumps,
Not 'cause it's spooky, just unpredictable,
I like a story that's nicely weaven,
It's like a puzzle that makes you want to give in,
That keeps you focused and keeps you hooked,
I know exactly that your time is booked,
You won't be free for anything else,
All episodes are like comfortable belts,
Keeping you tied, keep wanting to watch,
Don't book any tickets, there's no train to catch!

122.

I don't like to compare myself to others,
I know that this is really no good,
I know that doing it eventually bothers,
But I strongly feel that it is something others should
Also do.
Sometimes, we cannot see our limitations,
We cannot see our flaws and faults
Unless we're faced with situations
Where others did better and we could've also,
Had we just tried a little harder,
Had we followed the correct path,
Had we not been superficial or lazy,
Had we not been bias or blinded by wrath.

I don't like to compare myself to others,
But, boooy, does it truly make me feel good sometimes,
Self-esteem wonders!

121.

There will be plenty of milestones
And most will be psychological,
Self-inflected, (not) out of your control,
Subconscious excuses, fears of failure...
There will be plenty of bad times, for sure,
You must understand your desires are null,
You're just a tiny piece in a huge Universe,
When you feel at your lowest, just know it'll get worse.

And there will be times, when after a day like above,
You'll just feel like smiling, without caring at all,
A circuit is broken or did you evolve?
Regardless of reason, enjoy before you dissolve.

120.

What if God did exist
And he were one of us,
Would you be able to recognize
His powers?
Would he be a superhero?
Would he really be a saint?
Would he be the one described by any religion,
Would you celebrate his advent?

What if God did exist
And he were one of us,
Wouldn't he be kinda stuck-up,
With so many believers,
He'd be an influencer,
Would he ever fuck up?

I don't believe in religion,
I do believe in karma,
And if God did exist
And he were one of us,
I think he'd be a leader,
Someone to guide the others
Into becoming better,
Into being spiritual,
Not into following stupid rituals
For stupid celebrations
Just made for enslaving masses
Or spending lots of money.

What if God did exist
And he were one of us,
Do you think he'd be happy
With most of the priests we have?
Would churches be his homes,
With golden roofs and walls?
Would he be fasting for days
Until he would get sick
And then he'd just start eating
Until he would get sick?

What if God did exist
And he were one of us...
I truly hope he's not,
'Cause he'd be ashamed of us...

119.

There's people that know all your buttons
And just push them, just because,
It's like they know all your demons and how they can be summoned,
They bring to the surface each of your flaws.
You feel how your dark side easily comes to light,
Your good energy simply loses the fight,
Anxiety, anxiety, anxiety,
When you're taken over by vanity.

118.

I wish life were a holiday,
Trips here and there,
Fun all the way.
I wish most of our time were a holiday
And more rarely
Work would take all our days away.
I don't want it all on a plate,
That was never my way,
I'd probably get bored
Instantly.
But I wish I could sleep
And take trips
And have spare time for things
More often than I do today...
I wish I'd find a balance
Between income and living my way,
But life is not fair
And resting is rare
While nothing is cheap,
Here goes another week...

117.

Being good
Should happen all year long,
Being moderated
Should not depend on your religion,
Being close to your loved ones
Should be something common.

Always have family dinners
And celebrate life together,
Always share spirituality
And talk without formality,
Always open up to them
And share the light
Not matter how little bright,
Always spend your time
Close to your family, drinking wine,
Eating your favourite dishes,
Showing your love and best wishes!

116.

I wish life would come with instructions
So we'd at least have some guidelines,
But it seems like it was not in the Universe's plan
To have it easy for us.
Sometimes, if we listen to the silence
And close our eyes to really see,
The Universe speaks to us kindly
And tells us what it'd be good if we did;
Life gives us the choice, yes, every single time,
Sure, to some things we'll be drawn,
But it's all under our own control,
Free-will is a right of each new-born,
The rest are just excuses or pure fright!
So next time you see the big picture,
Work your way towards it
And even if it's hard and you'll want to give up
Remember it's all part of your ideal setup!

115.

There are no wrong answers,
Just as there are no right answers,
There are just answers
And then there's us.
And there's our moods
And our personalities
And our morals
And our plans.
Our expectations
And just who we are.

And there are no wrong questions,
Just as there are no right questions,
There are just questions,
But then there's our tones...
Then there's our voices
And then there's our moods,
Then there's our morals
And just who we are,
And then questions and answers
Become right or wrong,
They make us hurt
Or they make us way strong.

They make us wrong people
Or they make us right people.