131.

What I lack is discipline
And I despise myself for that.

I don't mind eating sugar,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind shopping for clothes,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind being a dreamer,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind making obsessions,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind being perfectionist,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind putting others first,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind having breakdowns,
What I mind is I cannot stop.
I don't mind becoming cold at times,
What I mind is I cannot stop.

I don't mind not exercising,
What I mind is I never start,
What I lack is discipline
And I despise myself for that.