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"Try out new things, be who you want to be"
Sure, but my pathology is to be scared:
When I was a kid, it took me 6 months to build up the courage to take the elevator
(Once I did, I would not want to take the stairs again).
When I was a teenager, I was afraid to talk to people, until I got to highschool and made a couple of good friends
(Once I did, they wouldn't shut me up for the love of God).
When I was a young adult, I was afraid of what I'd do with my life, skipping sleep because of that
(And I'm still struggling, still there,
Still keeping my dreams hidden away from everyone,
Becoming yet another number for the sake of material comfort).