212.

Sure, one dress doesn't make things right,
But four are going in that direction.
Compulsive? Who cares?! So is life,
Need to cover somehow the disconnection.
No worries, I'm fine - especially with the new collection,
A lady and style make the perfect match,
Regardless of who will watch.
There's ads everywhere, it's hard to refrain,
That's how they wired our brain,
It doesn't make us stupid
And it shouldn't make us be blamed
For the pieces of shit men that get veined,
There's never any excuse
For abuse.

211.

Horror stories
Can come to life,
Can you imagine
For a second
How it must be like
To be so scared
And to risk all of it,
To hope you're in a movie
So the ending is happy?
But the ending wasn't happy,
The ending was THE END,
So young and so courageous,
However to no extent,
The worst script award will go to
The police, the government?
It goes to this rotten country,
It also goes to you and me,
We're so caught up in our lives,
We don't make this place to be
Safe and kind, cruelty free,
Incompetence and stupidity
Rule the kingdom of lost humanity.

210.

The world becomes your bed,
Your eyes are rarely open,
Sweet dreams become a threat,
The world is out of boundaries,
You lost your soul's batteries,
You lost when you were born.
The fight? Oh, that's long over,
The war is yet to come,
You don't know who you are,
Until the right time comes,
Until the quest unravels,
Pretty much like in the movies;
Oh, come on, even you know this,
That's bullshit, purpose is gone!

209.

Daylight is cracking,
Sleep was so deep,
Should wake up now
And start doing things,
But who the hell's productive at 6 AM?
Get out and start running,
Make healthy breakfast, sure ma'am!
Or maybe, just saying,
Do things your own
Go ahead just keep sleeping,
You'll do stuff another day,
Woke up to go to the bathroom,
Sure, that's okay,
Now go back to sleep
And dream your running and breakfast away!

208.

Life can be so beautiful,
I don't know enough nice words to explain,
Nature is perfect,
The best influencer we should all follow,
Gazing around, looking into the fire,
You will start again to feel the wire
That connects you to Life.
Life can be so beautiful
And so can you!

207.

Too much heat,
Bodies can't adjust,
Too much drama,
Everyone's a shrink,
Too much talk,
Too little connection.
Sing along,
It's the stupidest song,
Hear them out,
They're singing the loudest.
Fear not death,
Fear today's paragon,
Fear not loss,
Fear what awaits when you won!

206.

Make a language of our own,
Make each house a home,
Made the walls vibrate with laughter,
Got what we were after!
Can stay in silence, we're that comfortable,
Chapters yet unwritten, so memorable,
One is more powerful than it would be with all,
I can finally say: "score!"

205.

Words become empty,
Laughters are shallow,
Feeling so young,
Feeling so hollow.
Nostalgia, looking back,
Wait, where'd you get time for that?
You must be productive,
Being dreamy is not.
Old body and mind,
But not due to passage of time,
Stress laid its wings on you,
Better wear them with pride,
Otherwise it's all in vain,
Share hours between bars and prescriptions,
Don't look on that (Facebook) wall,
You're Dorian Grey in reverse...

204.

How do you define good
And how do you define bad?
Giving money to beggers is good,
But them buying alcohol after is not.
Sometimes today's cross of sadness
Turns in time into the best of luck
So how do you separate
Good from bad?
There's double-dyed people
And you're happy when karma hits,
But shouldn't you be forgiving?
There's people who like to harm,
'Cause they grew up alone and sad,
Would you take the time to explain to them
The difference between good and bad?

You'll always think you're good,
But good can turn to bad,
So always bear in mind,
What's the actual impact?

203.

Never stop fighting,
Never give in,
You're never too old,
You just stopped being bold!
Maybe someone else can hear this,
'Cause it seems I won't,
So don't be like me,
Be afraid of wasted potential,
If nothing else works,
If you're a fish, you need to be in the waters,
If you're a bird, high in the sky,
But if you're a fish in the sky,
That doesn't make sense,
Right?
So then just tell me why,
You don't see it so clearly,
When you're so talented
But waste your life
In the same shitty office,
With windows that don't even open,
Everyday, at least 9 to 5?

202.

Life is but moments,
Moments that count,
Count your blessings,
Blessing's being loved,
Loved means feeling safe,
Safe to say I found my half,
Half of the time I'm daydreaming,
Daydreaming's my way of life.

(Just keep reading,
It's a loop, just like life.)

201.

Music festivals.
Never really got them,
'Cause crowds is what I run from.
All noisy, not sleeping enough,
Most probably drinking too much,
How's that really fun?
Not that I'm judging,
I guess fun is fun,
Just 'cause I don't get it,
That doesn't apply to anyone,
I wish I had the energy for highschool activities still,
But I am way too tired and I don't have the will.

200.

I'm so annoyed by stupid phobias,
I'll befriend my worst one and call it Tobias.

Yesterday, evening, feeling tired,
Waiting for the elevator, too many floors, no energy.
Just realized how silly I am wired,
Tobias shows up and starts talking to me:
"There's a long way up, maybe you'll get stuck,
It can easily happen and it's late at night!
You might stay there for hours, 'cause no one will come,
Oh, I'll be there with you and we'll have some fun!
I know for you it'll be a bit uncomfortable,
You'll talk to your brain, but you're way too vulnerable,
You'll talk to your heart and you'll talk to your lungs,
But I'll shut them all down, say "Hi" to my friend Jack!"

So you see, my friends, Tobias always comes with Jack,
And what can be worse than claustrophia and a panic attack?
Well, I'm sure there's many things, and Tobias might introduce them to me,
So let's stop this inception before it becomes all it can be...

"Oh, dear old friend Tobias, please, get in first,
Sure, I'll definitely get thinking about the worst,
This cabin right here feels too tiny, feels too small,
And it's a long way up till the goddamn 6th floor!
But let me breathe in and then let me breathe out,
I'm breaking all the sweats, hello Jack, now there's a crowd!
But let's not worry, time has streched, but I'll sing a song
Which goes like this, if you want, just sing along:
Screw you, mister Tobias, and screw you, mister Jack!
You can go to hell and may never come back!"

So I just kept singing and so my brain was busy,
I got to my floor and my companions had gone so easy,
No elevator was stuck and even if it were,
I'd have had a song prepared that I would've sang without defer!

Just keep your brain busy and think happy thoughts,
Tobias and Jack are bullies, but they can be controlled, those stupid ol' naughts,
Make sure to just breathe and make sense of it all,
That's when you'll be back normal and your "friends" will turn small!

199.

Late, late,
How are you late?
Seemed you were doing so great!
Oh, come,
Have a taste
Of this pie we are all sharing,
It's sweet and sour, might taste of grape,
Might taste of wine, might get you tipsy,
Doesn't matter if you're white, if you're black or if you're gipsy,
We can all share this pie,
Taste of wine and taste of grape,
Seemed you were doing so great,
Oh, boy, how are you so late?

198.

Sia told me I can do this,
Mika told me to take it easy,
I was told to calm down by G-Eazy,
I learned I need to make it in this misery business from Hailey
And that it can be a total eclipse of the heart daily,
But like Ziggy says, I gotta stay true to myself,
With The Killers, drowned it all with the bourbon left on the shelf!
Then Freddie said to spread my wings,
And I remembered that it's just the little things,
Mostly the crazy little thing called love
That saves each day and makes forget the crappy hours all!

197.

93...a number I don't even dream to get to be,
That's how young my grandma turned today,
And we're so happy that she's still here to stay,
Because she has so many stories yet to tell,
She's helped us grow into quite fine adults,
She raised me just with kindness, no insults,
So patient and so loving and I'm so thankful,
She always treated me fair, never scolded wrongful.
I am a part of her and she's part of my heart,
So cheers to grandma, may it still be long till we're apart!

196.

Far away from home,
But all your things are here,
Hope you won't feel alone,
My heart is there with you.
Can't wait that you come home,
It's few hours, but plenty of missing,
I miss even when you make fun
'Cause I just keep on sneezing.
Most books and people will teach you
How to be happy alone,
But I was doing pretty great,
On that I was self-taught,
You came along and taught me
To know where I wanna be,
Which is simply wherever,
As long as you're with me.

195.

We should get automatic software updates,
At least once in a while,
To make sure we're up-to-date
With the current needed IQ and style.
I'm not talking about making us all the same,
Just being as open-minded,
'Cause so many still leave in the past
And judge according to old times.
And some make so poor decisions,
Affecting themselves and affecting the planet,
We should get automatic software updates,
At least once in a while

194.

People have this way
Of being hypocrites,
When all of a sudden
They become sort of nationalists.
They'll take a lot of pride
On someone's success,
As if they had any part,
Like they know the pressure and stress.
They'll take a lot of pride,
When someone is successful,
But when there's no results,
Oh, boy, how much they'll judge!
So dear all, just listen,
It's nice to be glad for someone
That is part of your country
And are awesome at their job,
But it's their personal win,
It's not the country's one!

193.

Maybe it's shallow
To be this happy
For getting something
Material.
Maybe it's shallow,
But if it makes us so happy
And it's a dream come true,
Then it's perfect,
Not shallow.
Maybe it's perfect,
When it was meant to be,
All the details
Just fit perfectly
And it's something that we deserved.
It's clearly perfect,
It clearly makes us so happy,
So it's clearly not shallow at all.

192.

Once you start something,
It won't end until it ends,
I know it sounds stupid,
But sometimes you just get
The impression that it's over,
'Cause you think you have control,
But you're just dust in the wind
And, no, that's not a metaphor!
Getting back to our discussion,
Yes, dear, you don't have control,
All you have is detailed planning
And missing out on the fun of all.
But don't worry, there's no waste,
You won't taste the things I taste,
And viceversa, so the course now
Is both simply best and worst,
That's applicable for us both.
Don't you get it,
All you've started
Will be nothing but the end,
All beginning is the first step
To the final destination,
Just make sure that when you get there,
You are ready to transcend!

191.

Waiting on the good things
Like the train never derailed,
Not knowing where it'll stop next,
But knowing its destination.
So many compartments,
Some are locked, some scary,
In some go unannounced,
For some don't be unwary.
It's gonna be a long ride,
Depending on your choices,
Listen to the books,
Or listen to the voices.
And if you're awake enough,
You'll get to the railway engine
And entering the cabin,
You'll see yourself the driver,
The train will then be destined
To happiness or fail,
But it's your train, God damn it!
So drive it, it's your tale!

190.

Good things always happen offline
They should be treasured and shared behind
All those curtains of social media
Online happiness is sugar, not stevia.
Make sure not to get trapped by your social design,
The one outside will be the best sunshine,
While the one inside will be the best real you,
So leave the monitor, it makes all the fake become true!

189.

I wish I could stop time,
Maybe for selfish reasons,
But only the thought that my loved ones will die,
Just breaks me into little pieces.
I look at my mom and dad
And I wouldn't stand to miss them,
I want them to be around
Forever, happy and healthy.
I want my grandma with us,
'Cause she's the last one we got,
I want our pet children to live forever,
'Cause love cannot be bought
And they can't be replaced,
Just like memories can't be erased.
I want my brother always around,
To always pick me up from the ground,
To bug me like when we were kids,
But know we'll always be friends.
And last, but not least,
I want my husband forever,
This poem is not sad,
This poem makes them immortal.

188.

Try to take trips down in your mind,
At least once per week, for sanity's sake,
Sometimes from life's sleep it's best that you wake,
Otherwise you won't ever truly understand your kind.
Take time with yourself, to understand time with others,
Take care of your needs, I mean the psychological ones,
Make sense of words so they don't hurt like guns,
Learn how to walk in this world of runners.

187.

Little flickery lights,
What are you doing up there?
Do you have any care?
Do you ever look down on us,
Like we love to stare at you?
You fall if you want closer,
While we're inspired to grow,
You're all made of greatness,
While we're made of flaw.

186.

Do you trust in zodiac signs?
I don't. I trust in building the relationship,
In taking responsibility for own actions,
In leaving ego aside, but just as much to not be stepped on,
In apologizing and emphatizing and going above and beyond,
Because loneliness in two is the worst kind.
I trust until I have reasons not to,
I feel I make good choices so I don't need to worry about
Giving too much freedom to the other, and no doubt,
I don't believe in owning anyone,
When you want to control, it means that love is gone.
Do you trust in zodiac signs?
All I trust in is me having his love and respect and him having mine.

185.

So don't you think it's funny
How we're all ashamed of any physical flow,
How we're hiding and we're fighting over
All those non-important things?
So don't you think it's funny
How we're all applauding any moral abnormality,
Like hurting others for our own benefit and false sanity,
Instead of helping each other grow?
So don't you think it's funny
How it's not funny at all?

184.

One can focus on the bad and plotting revenge,
But if you've ever tasted it, you know by now it's bitter,
Treating the bad ones nice might feel a bit strange,
But the aftertaste of that is just a lot sweeter.
People won't appreciate the silent big efforts,
What will always matter is the little said out loud,
It's always the embroidered, not the plain that comforts,
However remember you're best for the smart, not for the crowd!

183.

I share my days with the funniest soul,
No matter the hardship of the last hours,
Every sunset comes with rolling on the floor,
Any pain or sadness, he cures.
But it's magic just laughing
Out of any stupid thing possible,
From invented words to randomly coughing,
We will choke with laughter at anything illogical.
And life is just better ever since there's him,
'Cause I can share everything,
And if I ever lose, I still win,
Ever since there's him...

182.

Keep the main goal in your mind
When things are getting rough,
See the big picture with your heart
When the light is too tough on your eyes.
Keep the right road, no matter what,
When right is what your child-self dreamt of,
Don't look behind, unless to check on your peers
And then keep straight ahead, no matter the fears.
Keep your word, that's what will count,
Invest most in the trust account.